up & at em'

So, I'm up this morning and "i'm focused man". I am serious this time about getting things together (smile) for real for real. Unlike not spending money for the rest of the month! I absolutely didn't do That. I think I actually spent money that same day...

But anyway, I'm doing articles and scaffolding, whohoo ;)

OH yeah, I'm in the Christmas spirit this morning! I'm ready and Later i WILL post my Christmas wish list!

singing "christmas time is here"

and these pointless pics of... ME. Fighting my bro for the camera, (sigh) what would life be without family??

VickyLee

Staying Focused

I am ready for this semester to be over already! It's the infamous never ending 1st year. I have a permanent headache! I'm sure grad school will pay off, but Goodness it's really hard to see the forest for the trees for real. i'm tired, but i'm not going to lose my focus.

my cousin told me that it's hard always being the positive person and it's true. when i was younger it was WAY easier, but now that i'm all "grown & sh!t", it's a task. BUT i can say that being positive makes life easier when you figure out how to break thru to nirvana. breaking thru is the hard part, but once you're there it IS great. STAYING there is the next task.

Yeah, so I'm rambling now. I'm sleepy. Anywho, STAYING FOCUSED is the goal...

and here's a pointless picture of noneother... I think it is SO funny my head is like 20times bigger than my body...(VickyLee the new BRATS doll in stores this January...keep an out, Ha!)

VickyLee

Sara Baartman

This was shared with me and I'm going to share it with you. If you get offended by this it's because,
1. It applies to you (You're Guilty)
OR
2. It's too real (& You're Lame)

Go ahead...check it out.

Escape to a Higher Plane and Elevate Your Mind Today

VickyLee

feeling sooo good

I woke up this morning and yeah i've seen it before and yeah i've played with it too, but it was just something about it this morning...it was just too good to resist. i took pictures of it and everything. ahhh (sigh)...

How I Love the SNOW!

Yeah, so i went crazy with the pictures, but who knows when it will snow in Big Money again!?? I'm just enjoying life (inhale/exhale...)

The Last Resort: Racism in America

So it's come down to the "race card" in the 2008 election. It's funny how ppl are always saying, "don't give me that. don't put race in this. you're trying to pull the race card." But, what's that I hear...? Nobody's saying that now. The only reason ppl are so anxious and calling Obama a Muslin and such, is because he's a black man. I'm no black racist, but I can recognize racism when I see it, can you?...

RePost / New Twist

I've been taking a lot of pictures lately. I liked this one a bunch. It's beauty in it's simplest form. Compare it to a beautiful woman, if you will. It was created by Alpha/Omega. It too is not Flawless. It is one of kind. It too is Beautifully made. BUT think with me for a moment... if God "clothed" "fed" and kept this flower, which can be found hanging Outside over my fence, just IMAGINE how much more He will do for the ones who are made in His image & are called by His name...

Before when I wrote this blog I was referring to a beautiful flower growing over the fence at my parents house. Since then, I've moved into my own spot and have began grad school (big changes, new outlook) At school things are cool, but I find that I am not very open when it comes to forming new relationships and to new experiences period. I like what I like and that is what it is. That's just how I've always been. I tend to make up my own rules and D@mnit, I follow them! However, as I am maturing i have found that this way of living, which is MY way, may not be the best way after all. I know that one day soon, I will have what I need, when I need it, but when I get there will I have anyone to share my happiness with?? Will I strive to exceptional, only to find, in all of my exceptionality, that I have become EXACTLY like everyone else. Having everything and nothing at the same time.

I'm choosing... not. Not that I am striving to be different or to "be me" which everyone seems to be trying to do. And about being yourself, why is that everybody is trying to be individual, but they are all so much alike. I can barely tell anyone apart.

Well, i think that true originality is not what you wear, it's not your style of dress at all, it's not the way you wear your hair, it's not "swagger", it's actually shown in how ppl receive and respond to you. At this point in life, I am learning to trust more in God to help me be that kind, patient, loving and underrstanding individual who is open to new things/experiences, isn't afraid of being afraid, and happy about life in general.

Just saying how I feel. Back to school I go...it's a must.

Time Warner's Got me Getting Silly...literally.

Okay, so i don't have cable. Nor do i have the Internet. No, I am not a cave woman. However, Time Warner SUCKS (period).

Therefore, I have missed the VP presidential debate last week, as well as the Presidential debate which airD tonight. How pissed am I? Well, let me tell you, pretty pretty pissed. Not just because I'm missing Obama tonight, crazy as$ Palin lastweek, and future 1st lady Michelle O tomorrow on Larry King @ 9p (plug), BUT more so because I am forced to watch DVDs and youtube until I am blue in the face!! (as u can c)...
AND now I'm even more pissed because I was watching youtube and came across vids of ppl doing the F$%kin 'Rack Daddy' when I discovered I CANNOT, for the life of me, do this gotD@mn dance (I don't know why that turned into a link...don't click it because I don't know where the heck you'll end up--lost in cyberspace, i reckon).

Anyhoo

The dance. I just cannot get my legs and body to do it. As embarrassed as I am to admit that I really WANT to 'Rack Daddy', the simple fact remains so... I CAN NOT. however, when i have the time, i OBSESS over these foolish dances and songs. Rack Daddy, Watch my Shoes, Wipe me Down, My Dougie, Get Silly... not the most intellectual joints, but when I'm alone or drunk enough in public (hell, I don't even have to be drunk) if i hear these songs, I have to dance. It's reflexive. A few months ago in BestBuy (in the H of course), Get Silly was blasting through the Dolby. I was unphased and my brother asked, "little sister, have you no SOUL? Get Silly is on and you don't even budge. Have you no SOUL?" This question was right on, and I was not insulted. In fact, as a result, I was forced to check out my surroundings, and noticed all of MY ppl getting silly...all down the isles (i sh!t you not). From this point my perceptual salience for these crazy SoulProvoking tunes has been ever so finely attuned. AND a direct by-product of my run-in with 'Silliness' is me no longer being able to hide my nature. Thus, this being why I am rather upset, perplexed even, that I cannot express myslf through dance...

This just in: i am well aware of the fact that I will, 9 times out of 10, NEVER get the opportunity to impress anyone with my sensational Rack-ability, Dougie-freshness (and the like) howev, I don't do it for the fans. I do it for my health...

(sigh)o bother, I should've gone with satellite.

All About my MAIL (fetti, paper, bread, ends, scrilla)... or Something Like That. Trying to Stay Alive!

weeeeellll. I'm baaaaaacck! Life has been so hectic, and if I'm not studying, I'm too tired to think straight (or sideways). But Trust and Believe, life may be hectic, but it ain't all bad BECAUSE...

a) I AM NO LONGER an UnEMPLOYED grad student!!! Sux that i won't see any ends from this new job until January... Howev, it's a great op to build my resume and gain some useful experience. Can't knock that...

b) And yes, I am STILL broke and I ended up spending money, AND won't be able to by the F%$kin' Devin the Dude LP tomorrow (which sux because I've been waiting for it since...who knows. I darn near wrote an entire blog about it!) however, it's STILL all good. Like I've said many times before, I'm living!! Why complain??

c) but Forreal though, If I don't get my hands on some more change... (smile) it may not be good for much longer!!!

Landing Gear.

October 7th can't get here fast enough!!

I loved Waiting to Inhale and plenty of his other albums over the years, but on a whole 'nother' note... where the hell have I been?! He didn't renew his contract with rap-a-lot waaaay back in Feb '08. I'm looking on myspace today and the new page??... I knew something was up & sure enough, after a little web-surfing I came across what I was looking for. SO I'm really ready to hear how his new situation has influenced his latest and greatest album. A few of the songs have leaked from the album, and I'm no (rap)spert, but I know what I like and I like what I've heard. I'd buy it today if I could, well no I wouldn't (I forgot I was broke as a joke...no joke) Good thing it drops in October!!

Landing Gear.

Going Broke

I, VJP, am vowing to NOT spend another dime for the remainder of this month (um, about 2 weeks, give or take a day). It is a personal endeavor, but I am certain my primary provider would be more than thrilled to hear of this. & yes, it may seem impossible to most, but, you can trust & believe that I will achieve the unimaginable. I have a problem and it's simple...

i'm on the verge of going broke!

Within the last month I have...

1. moved into and out of, and then into another apartment -- pretty much alone (moved twice)
2. ran from two hurricanes, Gustav -to Houston, TX / Ike -to Cedar Hill, TX (evacuated twice)
3. completed my 1st two wks of graduate school (text books/ no rest... enough said)
4. remained positive (most important)

This has gotten SO expensive. FEMA can't get me back on my feet. I have to do better, because that list of 4 items has tallied me up a bill out of this world... I am debt free as of Right Now, but in One Minute, if Shopping / Spending continues to be my drug of choice I may be out on the streets @ 23. My all-star "Wish List" will have to wait...

I'll keep you posted on my success

Industrious VIC

Um well, when I first thought to write this blog i had a whoooolllleee lot to say, but since then so much has gone down. I am still on my industrious kick, but seeing that I have been so industrious I haven't the time to type about being industrious. I have decided to be a doer as opposed to a mere hearing bystander, a dreamer, if you will.

Hurricane Ike came and for sure when we return home I will have pictures to put up of the damage to my little city Orange.

But let me trip you out though...

When you enter Orange it doesn't smell like an orange any more (it never has since I've known it, however now it's much worse) Here's a pic of what Orange smells like post Ike

fish guts.

The water receded in deed, but the fish were left behind. I have a few other pix, but I'll post them later. Industry calls...

Where There's God's Will, There's A Way

To be honest, I did not have the best day yesterday. Today, however, is a new day & my plan is to enjoy my life and not worry! I have a feeling that I will be successful. All I can do is pray. Looking through some pictures made me realize that I am Me...not you, but me. I can do what I put my heart to, but My heart has to be in it. I feel that that is key. When you put your mind to do something, nothing can stop you BUT God, if it's not in His will for your life. So if it is God's will/if God sees fit...I will have a wonderfully blessed day!

Today: Enjoy Life

Tomorrow: Out w/ the Tonsils!!

Thursday: ... ...

Uniquely Beautiful

I've been taking a lot of pictures lately. I liked this one a bunch. It's beauty in it's simplest form. Compare it to a beautiful woman, if you will. It was created by Alpha/Omega. It too is not Flawless. It is one of kind. It too is Beautifully made. BUT think with me for a moment... if God "clothed" "fed" and kept this flower, which can be found hanging Outside over my fence, just IMAGINE how much more He will do for the ones who are made in His image & are called by His name...

Beautifully Unique.

life IS what YOU make it

I, apparently, woke up on the right side of the bed this morning. I am feeling revitalized (thank you Jesus) which is a great thing considering that Moet/Ciroc "drank" my bestie tried to kill me with last night...o well, as I stated before, I'm still Living (thanking God again!).

Last night, my family and I went to Class of '68's reunion, and in the back of my mind I wanted to be sort of negative. I was being sarcastic and satirical, but in the end, the joke was on me and I ended up learning a life lesson.

Lately, a lot of different things have been determining my attitude and my overall state of self. So, I prayed hard because being puppeted through life is not as easy as it looks. I was sick (literally) and tired (obviously). God got me to together and I could feel His goodness, I could feel my light shining within, but when it came down to going to this "old" people class reunion I was less than stoked. However, while I was there, I enjoyed myself to the nth degree, and it wasn't because of the drink. Something had clicked inside of me, a little voice of sorts, saying, "this is your life, not the people who are looking at you, not the people who may judge you...this IS your life." From that point, it was on.

Me & My Daddy -- Looking as fly as he wanna be

My Bestie & her boo -Shawn

My Uncles were in the building!

My dad & his friends -- I loved it! They looked Great

The AfterMath

Moral of the Story:

The "Gotcha-Gotcha" in being a positive happy person is actively BEING a POSITIVE HAPPY person!! Being positive and STAYING positive is an essential ingredient!! Negativity is not the driving force in a truly positive persons life. For example, you cannot want to be the best you because somebody doubts that you can...that's not real (&/OR) you can't say, "I am going to have a good day" or "I am going to have a good time at this reunion" but really feel the exact opposite...that's not real.

Life is how you see it. If you see the bad in everything, your life will be miserable, and I know a lot of people say, "Well, it's not that I'm seeing everything in a negative light, I'm a Realist." Being realistic doesn't mean that you have to be negative, there is good in the worst of the worst. You have to make the best of Every situation. Regardless of one individual "bad" situation or a multitude of them, your life IS and can only be what YOU make it.

Untl'd

Sooo... we will be attending, yet, another class reunion. Class of '68 this time. I've heard that the older class reunions are pretty cool, so I won't prejudge.

Pictures Coming Soon...

This Morning When I Rose,...

It is 8:04am, and I am in a really positive mood. I'm feeling like more than a conqueror, and to be quite frank, I like it. I've been down lately, but this morning when I rose everything seemed to be back in place. The minor aches and the occasional cough did not bother me one bit. I'm feeling mind over matter this morning. If you can believe it, you know the rest, WELL this morning I am believing. I'm feeling like nothing is impossible for me right now. I'm just feeling so swanky this morning. Is my swagger trying to resurface itself??

Well, I'll tell you one thing. I am thankful this morning for this sudden renewal. It is WONDERFUL to know that I am God's child!! I am happy and I am not going to allow different situations, people, the children at the daycare (smile), or anything for that matter to bring me down. This feels real good.

blah, blah, blah...

i am bored. watching tv. surfing the net & pulling my hair out. i hadn't pulled my hair like this in a week. i won't do it tomorrow. i just slipped up today. oooohhh it's raining. i'm going to go to bed so that i may enjoy this gooood weather!

I'm Still Living

My Big Bro -- Very Debonair

My Classmates -- Leshia & Geneva

Lastnight was great! We drank Moet and Ciroc until we were content, we laughed until our cheeks were sore, and we danced until our feet hurt! Most important, we lived in the moments... that makes life easy. Lately, I have had to trust God and I know that he is real. There is no doubt. I just have to remember that God's word doesn't promise no storms, but that He will be with us in our storms. I'm just thankful today for my family and friends. God is good